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Current music:	apoptygma berzerk - rollergirl

wow...long time no post...
i haven't been here in a while...i dunno why, i just sorta forgot about it i guess! or maybe i got tired of it, or maybe both...i don't know. anyway, life is a lot better for me now, mainly because i think i've passed into manic, but whatever:)

oh man...bob said he'd try and get me metallica tickets! i am so excited! of course, there's probably no way that i'd ever be able to afford it, but he promised to bring me a shirt:) he and bill were all mad that i couldn't go to "tent city" tonight. i just didn't want to go out and get drunk. i didn't feel like it. i guess thats a good sign, as it means that i can now resist drugs AND alcohol, if not cigarettes. ah well, no one's perfect!

speaking of not being perfect, julie is now officially in trouble with her eating disorders again. her new goal is to way 100 pounds! in the last week she's gone down from 122 to 117. she is way to thin already. i have told her - and i'm not kidding - that if she gets below 110 she is going in the hospital. everyone has agreed to help me, including brian (her boyfriend) and even my mom! just proves that julie and i really were switched at birth and she is my "mom"'s real daughter! haha:) it's sick really, i sometimes wish i had that sort of self-control. but i don't, so i gotta be happy with what i've got.

and what i've got can't be all that bad, as both dan and ken seem to like it. ken asked my out yesterday...had a hard time turning down such a sweetie. ah well. and dan is now with danielle (thank god, they are so cute together!) so i don't even have to htink about that one anymore.

well i gotta go...everyone is finally out of my room! i am living in the tv room for now because mine is empty - we are painting and redecorating it. it was mom's idea, she wanted to get me out of my "phase" (depressive). she doesn't seem to understand that i have to wait and get out of the phase on my own...i can't be forced. whatever...it's nice to know she at least pretends to care! well, as the french say, ?+++!