I Eat Babies' Journal

If I only had a brain...
I've been wondering why I keep this online journal. I'm not a "techie" type person, I don't particularily like computers...I guess it's because here I am anonymous, so I can talk about all the things that I can't tell my friends. Like ED and SI shit...I couldn't tell anyone that, or they'd freak out. Speaking of SI shit, I got bored this morning and carved a big "X" in my leg. As usual, I kind of "woke up" a minute later and realized what I'd just done and had to clean up all the blood. Oops. Am I the only person who does that? It's like I go into a sort of trance and wake up with cuts on me. Maybe I'm just a psycho...who knows. At least I'm not in my depressive stage right now...my good mood seems to have lasted for almost a month this time without my being too depressed. Yay! I hate that I can't control how I feel. I also hate that I don't have anyone to talk to about this. But then again, if I did, they'd freak out and think I was suicidal or something (I'm not.). No one would understand.

Wow I'm rambling quite majorly. Anywho...

Tonight was fun. The Suits were supposed to play at the Embassy with The Deportees and Saved by Sanity, but it was cancelled so everyone went back to Cody's house and we had a "show" there. I sang Soud System with some dude from Saved by Sanity...but I forgot the second verse. Oops. It was fun though...people are being nice right now. (of course that will change as soon as I have to put up with the fuckheads at school tomorrow...)

Speaking of...there's only about 15 days left or something before exams. Wheee! Then off to Greece and back for Warped Tour where I will get to see Dallas and Spike and Nicole and Sarah and everyone else who I never get to see. Then to the cottage - Julie is coming again this year! - and then camp for two weeks. Last year at camp. I'll miss it, as cheesy as it sounds. Everyone there is so nice. But I wouldn't want to be a counsellor there or anything, because if you look at all the staff, they are all pretty much the same. Preppy skater-type kids. Not that interesting. (Except for Corey's and Brian's super ska band. Yay!)

Anywho, I will shut up now and go to bed because it's 1 am and I have to get up at 6:30 (ehhhhhhh...shoot me).

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Rancid - Roots Radicals