I Eat Babies' Journal

Long Time No Post...
Hey everyone! And by everyone I mean online diary thingy. Haven't posted in a while...do these things get shut down if you leave them for too long without posting? Hmmm...anywho...

Tonight is Brian Ross' birthday party. His bday was last friday, but because Tom and Ken and I were all busy with the play (Romeo and Juliet) we decided to have it this week instead. I don't even know if I feel like going though. I'm in a solitary kind of mood tonight. Think I might just hang out here instead and say I'm sick. I know that sounds horrible - ditching my friend's birthday because I "don't feel like going" - but it's not the same thing. I just have absolutely no desire to be around people. I just need to be alone. After all, I'm going to be around people constantly for the rest of the weekend. It's so bad that I didn't even want to see Brett this afternoon. I left my bike at his house the other night and I was supposed to go back and get it today after classes, but I really didn't want to go. I know it would have been for only a minute or two, but it's weird. Even that is too much.

Anywho, I am going to add ana to my "interests" list (interests...ha!), and I'll now use this as an update/motivational thing for my ED. Anyone who wants to post ana tips or anything, feel free. Anyone who wants to preach to me about how bad it is, fuck off. This is the one thing in my life over which I have control, so don't go trying to take this from me too.

Good Lord...my mom is dancing to Skinny Puppy. "Addiction" is playing and she walks in and starts dancing...she's so weird.

Speaking of weirdness chez my mother, when she found out that I skipped all of my classes yesterday (goddam secretaries...called my house personally! fuck them.) she asked me if I was into "a lot of dope"!!! Haha:) She doesn't believe me that I've quit all that shit...and I really have.

Anywho, I have to go...I'll post back later with my first weight and body measurement thingys as well as goals.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Apoptygma Berzerk - Unicorn